2019 ✨

Honestly I’ve only stumbled onto my blog today because I got a notification of an automatic renewal payment coming out and I thought what the fuck I haven’t wrote anything in about 5 months.

What kind of blogger am I? 🤦🏻‍♀️

I always sit down at this time of year to write my new goals out for the year and have a look at the previous years objectives. I can honestly say I ticked off a good chunk of mine and I’m more determined than I’ve ever been for 2020s goals.

2019 has probably been the most successful yet unsuccessful year of my life. Starting a whole new life in London obviously being the key life change I’ve made, but with that I’ve also developed a whole new set of thoughts and feels that I’ve never experienced before.

I’ve had anxiety for the first time, I’ve felt so lonely I’ve cried myself to sleep, I’ve felt lost, I’ve felt not good enough, I’ve never felt more single and just outright sad than ever. I’ve felt like as I’ve moved to another city to better my life everyone else around me has overtook and is doing better, happier and I’ve felt left out. I’ve also learnt that all of the above is more than normal and by saying them out loud (or on social media cos same thing, right?) is the only way I’ll ever be able to overcome these feelings and do something about it.

I don’t want this to sound like I’ve been unhappy all year because I defiantly have not, I’ve only had these feelings for maybe the last 3 months and alongside them I’ve had some of the best days and experiences alongside making new life friends.

For 2020 the number one goal on my list is to become the best version of myself that I possibly can. I am going to go for everything I’ve ever wanted and stop fearing the outcome.

I want to wish everyone a happy new year and a special thank you if you’ve stuck around to still hear what I’m up too after all these years, I appreciate it. ❤️

Talk soon,

Lotsa love

AG xxo

Leaving life for London âœˆï¸

I am alive everyone.

No need to panic.

Seriously though, how long since I wrote a post? 🙈

If you don’t already follow me on everything else or haven’t guessed by the title, I have moved to London.

This weekend marks my first month done and dusted in the big smoke and I just thought it was about time that I gave a little update on what my feels are with leaving home for the very first time. I have literally never lived that “student life” nor experimented by moving out with a mate or two, I was literally by my mas side since birth lol

So I think the year of turning 27 it was about time to go, eh?

I had the idea over the last few years that I never wanted to settle in Belfast and defiantly wanted to move to London at some stage and at the beginning of this year it all just went from 0 to 100 real quick. Which in hindsight I am so glad of.

My job in personal shopping was coming to an end (maternity cover) and instead of settling and going back to my old position I applied for my current job (which just popped up at the exact right time), topshop personal shopper in Knightsbridge and the rest is history as they would say.

A lot of people asked why, how are you going to afford it, will you not miss everyone, it’s so lonely etc etc.

Why? Because in all seriousness what else can I do in Belfast? London is one of the most prestigious cities for the fashion industry and huns that’s where I wanna be.

Afford it? I can’t. Nobody in London can. But fake it to you make it x

Miss everyone? Like mad. And this is the first real week I can openly and honestly say that. This is the longest I haven’t seen my baby brother since he was born and my mum for that. I have the best friends in the whole world and not seeing them at least once a week hurts my heart but making them proud is why I am here.

Lonely? God yeah it can be. I’m typing this sitting on the tube and as I look about the train 95% of the people are on their own. That doesn’t mean they spend their day lonely; and I have a few amazing friends here already which I am so grateful for. I move into my new flat next week with another soon to be great pals and I am so excited to make this my home.

This post is a lot longer than I probably intended it to be, but it is the first time I have properly sat down to write and it has just all came out lol. I did have people write to me on insta who wanted to hear all about it so I hope I have answered everything. Basically I am so happy with the decision I have made to move here, I can already see so many exciting opportunities and experiences for me here in the future. While there are bittersweet moments, you will get that no matter where in the world you are. As long as you have confidence in yourself and a strong support system from friends and fam you can do whatever you put your mind to.

Speak soon,

Lotsa love

AG xxo