Living in lockdown – how are we really getting on?!

Well gals, here we are.

Week 67 of lockdown?

I have honestly lost count of the time, days and weeks at the minute. Every day is Groundhog Day.

How are you getting on?

I think we have all been asked this question / asked this question to someone recently lol but does anyone really know the answer? Truth is there is no right or wrong way to feel in this situation because nobody has ever done it before. We are living in literal history. This will be a GCSE question in 20 years time folks 🤣.

I have been back home with my family for just over 6 weeks now, I was home for a ten day break before this really kicked off and low and behold I never got back to London. I don’t think we ever expected it to get this bad. For me ( and this sounds stupid I know) i just thought the rest of the world would go through it and we would skip on by somehow. Now we are all adjusting to the new ‘normal’.

Now more than ever, we are on our phones constantly, social media flat out refreshing looking at what everyone is doing and sharing what we are doing. I am grateful for this as I have a bit of a platform to distract myself with and throw my attention at. At the same time it can be the source of anxiety and stress. I only have a fraction of clothes with me; which is whatever I know because we aren’t going anywhere! But for me it’s the creative distraction I’m craving while I can’t work. Things like this can lead to constant comparison. Same with seeing people being more organised, doing more workouts, more baking more anything really. I am a very organised and routine driven person normally, so for me I need to write lists and plan things in my head to keep me going. Saying all this, I have had days where I have barley brushed my hair or got off the sofa mind you – but these days are gonna happen. While we all go through this new way of life what we need to remember is we can only do what feels right for us and our bodies. Some days we can take what everyone else is doing as motivation or we can say well fair play to them but I’m going to eat 5 Easter eggs today not run a 5k.

I can’t say I’ve learnt any new life skills so far but what advice I can give is to talk, be present and be kind. Keep in contact with everyone more now than ever, send a random message to someone you maybe haven’t seen in a while. Talk to your friends about how you’re feeling: even if it is to say you feel shit that day. Love everyone harder after this, hug everyone tighter and don’t ever say no to a night out again 😛

Stay safe everyone, see you on the other side of this.

Speak soon,

Lotsa love

AG xxo

Confessions of a 20 something year old

The start of a new year is always nice, you set new goals, you make big plans but before you know it you’re thinking about another birthday that’s looming.

Long gone are the days of being 5 or 6 and being so excited to pick a few of your friends to bring out for your birthday party. It’s now more of drowning your sorrows pretending you have your shit together kinda situ.

This April I will turn 27. Now I know I’m not about to get my pension – but when I was 17 I defiantly thought that this would be the age you kinda just knew what you were at in life?

*tumbleweed*

Well 17 year old Aisling, no you don’t.

Instead it’s the age were you have friends who are married, engaged, having babies, moving cities, countries and getting big “proper jobs”

And then the “me” of the group. Just unsure of what their life is lol.

What are you meant to be doing when you’re a nearly 27 year old? All of the above? Or the latter?

Is there really any set “rules“?

As much as I would love all of the above, my main fear for “growing up” is not being good enough. Everything I do in life I want to be great at.

So for me, if I find something that I’m amazing at I will work hard at it to become the best I can be. This is my main concern on obeying the “rules” at this age in life.

As for the rest of the adults things, I guess they will just follow….

Because, well it has too. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Speak soon,

Lotsa love

AG xxo