Keeping up with the ‘competition?’

I tried to start writing this post about three or four times but I don’t even really know what I’m trying to talk about – so how do you start it? 😂

As the title suggests I’m basically finding it hard to keep up at the minute and I’ve wrote competition loosely as I don’t know if thats even the right word that I should be using? Everyone I follow on insta or YouTube or their blog is because I enjoy them, their content and love seeing them do well. But are they my competition? Should I be comparing myself to others? Or am I my own competition?

When I moved to London I thought yes this is it, more content, more events, more opportunities where as in hindsight I feel like I’ve hit a wall. My Instagram is more or less at the same following, people who liked and commented on my photos before have just stopped, I’ve been taken off more or less any PR companies mailing lists that I was on before hand (which is fair as I don’t live in the same city) and I’ve only been at a handful of events ( all thanks to my friend Rachael bringing me along as her plus one).

So how do you keep up or am I just being impatient? Wouldn’t be like me…

Living in London is absolutely exhausting and as much as I love it – it deffo takes balls to live here. The balance of working, socialising and trying to keep a day to focus on the creative side of my life is a LOT.

Am I a bad “blogger” if I don’t wanna spend all day every day taking photos of myself? If i can go weeks on end without really being bothered, is that lazy?

When I think of it this way I’m like well yeah gal that’s why you’re not keeping up but then how do you find a balance?

I have always said I hate making content like blog posts and videos “ just cos” i would always rather it have a purpose as I love putting my time into it when I am feeling the creative juices flowing lol.

Do any of you gals ever feel like you’re not keeping up? Wether it be in life, with work or with yourself?! Would love to know everyone’s thoughts on the subject!